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Wednesday, 06 January 2010

ughh some people just make you want to defy all your upbringing and morals and kill that person. it just totally ruined a moment in my otherwise perfect day.

school's cancelled :D oh joy! haha, well, i actually mean it cus then i can focus on studying math and chem. i'm rather sleepy though :P later, we're going to sled around. but first we have to find an appropriate slope! :D

i was reflecting on 2009 and i guess 2009 has been a very reflective and eye-opening year. It has made me blindingly aware of how inadequate i am. I've met a fair share of people who have allowed me to see all my imperfections. So i guess it is a blessing from God that i've met these people. God-sent? maybe. I'd like to think one of them is a demon from hell. Yes, despite how that person has helped me see some of my flaws. I know its not very Godly to say things like that but that's how that person makes me feel most of the time. But its tiring to hate someone so i'm trying to quell such feelings and just bury the hatchet. 2010 is a new year and i shan't start it with hating someone.

so back to my 2009 review. 2009 has definitely been challenging. very challenging. full of highs and lows. there were so many times where i was lonely and i forgot the most important thing. 2009 was full of ... regrets? Is that how i should put it? hmm.. i'm not too sure but so far, i've got a few huge regrets but then again, what's life without regrets eh?

then there's the good parts. making friendships that'll last forever. having fun. having the opportunity to come here to study! having such a wonderful family.

okay, i shall continue my reflections another day.

I should go back and study...

on a different note, so what, i'm not entitled to my views?

Monday, 04 January 2010

I will never be, I will never be tall, no
And I will never be, never ever be sure of it all
Oh, why is the world so cruel to me
When all, all I ever want to be is anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not
I'm not

I will never be, I will never be you, no
I will always be, I will always be me, that I know
But oh, even though I'm happy being me
I want to get away from all this harsh reality, oh

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not

Yeah, gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not
Oh, anything I'm not

Gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not

Yeah, gimme a break, a little escape
I am so tired of being me
I wanna be free, I wanna be new and different
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not
Anything I'm not

this song really describes my feelings sometimes... hohum
i hate coffee.

Sunday, 03 January 2010

Men are so dense sometimes.
You know how it feels when you tell someone how you feel and that person totally misses the point? but you dont really want to bring it up again because it might fluff some feathers so you just concede? yeah.. happening to me.
I've been having period cramps the whole day. bloody hell. it went away during the afternoon and now its back. hai. why did eve get tempted by the snake.
you know, i was thinking, randomly, if eve hadn't eaten the fruit from the forbidden tree, there'd be no need for God. and there'd be no purpose in life. quite cool.
i wonder how one could decide to be an atheist. i mean, there's so many things out there that science cannot explain. are they that stubborn to continually live in ignorance and denial? Like honestly, can people really believe in the Big Bang? That's totaly bullshit. The idea that the Universe has expanded from a primordial hot and dense state about 14 billion years ago to what we see/are now is too bombastic. Creating something out of nothing? hm... right. i bet those physicists just made some "logical" story up to silence the religious leaders. yeah i know what you're thinking, me, Andrea, trying to argue with the geniuses. ha. i know right? but anyone who believes that explanation has to be somewhat, idiotic. harsh words i know. and dont even get me started on evolution.
i'm going to stop here. i'm hungry and i have cramps. i dont wanna do econs cus that'll just give me a headache. ughhh. i hate school. i officially dread school. i officially want to skip every day of school. hahaha wait. let me think about what i just said. i dont know. school seems so stupid nowadays. ahwell.

Saturday, 02 January 2010

There's only one major drawback of coming to UK to study. All the cocky unexposed singaporeans who have been through MOE's A level and O level syllabus can't help but look down on us. Well, understandable, our government made your future dependent on that one final exam whereas UK's government believes in flexibility. Its quite annoying when you meet people and they ask where you study and you say "Oh, the UK." and they give you this "ah, I understand." look. not everybody goes to UK because of its slack education system. Then they ask "so you do the june paper?" and i say yes. and they're response, as expected : " that's SHIT easy!!! no wonder.."
Let's get this straight. we learn the exact same things as you guys do just that we dont go too (unnecessarily) in-depth.
2010 is here. i need to start making my resolutions... it doesnt feel much different. it feels like 2009 wasn't worth the struggle. haha we'll see.
I love my Bose headphones :) i'm in heavennnn.